i'm getting married

huhuhu...sorry for the gimmick..

i couldn't think of any other ways to make you guys read my post..><;;

Right know , wedding news is the only things that succeded in getting our attention the most..XD

You can whacked me if you want =P

In the name of Allah , most gracious most merciful

My beloved deseventh-ers friends…

It’s been a while since I wrote something to all of you . Since I’m not active anymore at community-zero (heard it was closed now) neither did I post anything at deseventh mailing list ( i supposed it hasn’t exist anymore , has it?) ..i suddenly had a feeling to write again but couldn’t find the right platform to reach you guys . Until at last , I decided to just land my writing here . I don’t know where to start neither did I have something to bring about . I’ll just let it flow to where it would lead me . 

It’s been a awhile…some of you I haven’t even met in 3 years (even though my ‘home-coming’ was quiet often ><) . Except for the UIA-ers ^ ^ ..one of them even said that they couldn’t get to miss me as I had ‘always’ be at home >< . Of all my ‘home-coming’ trips , the latest one did gave a remark on me . I don’t know why , maybe because I got to see one of my lifetime friend getting engaged . It did somehow make me realize that we are now reaching the adults world , believe it or not .

Athirah’s engagement make it possible for me to gather and meet up again with all my friends . The mixed feeling gripped my heart as our nostalgia started playing in my mind . The songs we used to sing , the smiles that used to be in our faces , the laugh we used to share and all the sweet memories we used to cherish . Never did I understand what our friendship mean to me until I come here . I’m starting to appreciate our boys who I used to take as my ‘enemy’..? or opponent maybe (I couldn’t find the right word that suited my thoughts) . But then , I realized that ‘our boys’ that stayed in my memories where the one that I used to know during my high school time . Time had pass us . People change , we change . I don’t exactly know , what each of us has gone through for the past 3 years . Hopefully , it would lead us to be a better person in future .

Back then , we were nicely wrapped  in our school uniform , talking about exams , gossiping on boys , watching movies , hot dates and etc . Yes , we undergo tarbiyah process but when young blood were simmering inside we just don’t act so .It’s fun to be trouble-some sometimes . Acknowledging the borderline ,  we still manage to differentiate what we are supposed to do and don’t . Talking to boys seems like a forbidden things to do . Let alone coupling , you had just committed the biggest sin on earth . What an innocent mind we had back then .

Now , we still have exams and test waiting in line , not to mention homeworks and assignment . We still watching movies , gossiping on boys and etc . But in a different point of view . I understand now that talking to boys , exchanging opinions did somehow broaden my prospects . My field of study taught me how to have a good relationship with the ‘XY’ species =P . My stand on the’couple’ issue hasn’t changed a bit . But then , I respect my friends for what they choose to do with their life . They have their right to walk on the path they want . It didn’t change my love a bit on them . Yet , I love them more as we grows . We are not teenagers anymore not yet an adults . I used to freak out and panic when I had noticed the changes that happened around me sometimes ago . Until I found out that the biggest change that ever happened to me was myself actually .

            Be responsible of your decision . Love yourself before you love others . Appreciate others if you want people to appreciate you . Life is so short . Whatever our fate is ,  wherever our life might lead us , believe in Allah .

            Before I went to

Indonesia

, I never got to bid farewell to my beloved de-seventh-ers in a proper ways . To the boys , I hope amongst us there’s no grudge to be hold anymore. I know I used to give you guys a hard time . Some of you might feel annoyed with my ‘cam-bagus’ personality back then . Not to mention , the ‘gila-kuasa’ incidents ><

I might put the coldest expression whenever I’m with you guys but believe me , deseventh banin are among the best XY species I’ve ever known . Hopefully , it would stay the same as it used to be . .. “Islam telah lama merindukan peribadi seperti Ali , Talhah , Mus’ab, Abu bakar , Umar..” It wouldn’t be too early for me to say this…be a good man , a good husband , a good father . May you guys lead a happy and sakinah family in future .

            And to deseventh girls , my lifetime friends . The first thing that came across my mind , the very first moment I see your face when I’m home was… ‘thank God , I found you…’ Time may pass , but we know this would last our whole life , everlasting friendship in my life.Someone sang this song to me sometimes ago and it remind me so much of “our story”.. ‘Days pass faster than we can keep up with .We'll triumph over every new challenge that comes our way . I don’t care , there’s nothing to lose . I’ll just keep looking ahead . No matter what hardships we may face..
We'll face them all together . Don’t forget this one name which will last forever , friend . You're stuck inside my soul..’

            We are separated for the time being as we had our dreams to be reached . We will be back for good with pride and dignity . Looking forward to see you guys again .

“…bila yang tertulis untukku adalah yang terbaik untukmu .

Kan

ku jadikan kau kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku . Namun , takkan mudah bagiku meninggalkan jejak hidupmu yang telah terukir abadi sebagai kenangan yang  terindah…”

J_L@

14 February 2006

,

12:41 AM

*pardon my bad languages and the grammatical errors…lama tak sekolah weh , English dah karat ><;; *

Comments

[FarahCK]

Though I'm not in any part of this [and yes, your topic caught me off guard! xP] but I'm sure your friends mentioned here would be more than touched to feel your warmth dedicated for such precious kind of love. =) J-La dongsaeng jjang! <3

[HuDa]

tak guna dikesali masa lalu,
tak guna merisaukan apa yang akan datang..
qada' qadarNya kita akui...
ya...akui tapi apakah kita yakin?
tapi j-la..ana tahu anti sentiasa akan yakin :)
kerana yang bisa melihat
hanyalah mereka yang melihat dengan mata hati
(dah lama tak jumpa, sumtimes i feel like i don't know u guys anymore...pengorbanan utk menuntut ilmu, that's the word. apa2pun antum semua ttp dia hati..ukhuwwah filLah!)

[NTY]

jela, lovely word and beautifully written..it goes direct to my blood intavenously stimulating my frontal lobe.. our friendship is the longlasting, i believe that no matter how far i had changed, our friendship will always be the same.. uhibukki fillah abadan abada.. we prayed that this everlastinf ukhuwwah will bring us to jannah

[AaLaa']

heck i cudnt agree more! gue terkesan abess! superb a jela..eyy bile nak balik mesia..dah wendu dahhh..kire anti dah bley balik da nih ;P
hehe. sarangeyy ?..ehe xsall

[AaLaa']

heck i cudnt agree more! gue terkesan abess! superb a jela..eyy bile nak balik mesia..dah wendu dahhh..kire anti dah bley balik da nih ;P
hehe. sarangeyy ?..ehe xsall

[AaLaa']

darn apsal 2 kali send nih? cess.. btw deseventh mailing list still exist ma..hehe tbe2 rase cm keco2 lak :")

[Mus'ab]

assalamualaikum,

noticed my name was there. but im dead sure that wasnt referring to me. Adie mentioned me about this entry. Anyway, nice awwakening article. i feel the same way as you do. we have a humongous work to do. if only we all realize how much effort have been put on us during smiaa, we would notice how much change people expect out of us.